2011

2011-03-01T20:38:00.000-08:00

yesterday was really a bad luck day for me
i woke up late
so i planned to go to school after assembly
who knows i met mr ching and mr chai
get shot from both of them and have to run the whole field of SMKAP for two rounds ==
and tdy i din go to school
hahaha ponteng xD maybe its because like i dont like being punished like that or what
but dats not the main reason lah
i just need a rest
and wednesday is definitely a good choice of day for me

time past so fast
its march now
but for me
i will be happy if it passes faster
i have no idea why i dont like being in secondary anymore
well if about friends and studies then its ok
but sometimes when u have to face something u dont like, its just so irritating
and i just hate that

february test is not that bad either
i will work hard and my next aim is mid year test
A+ is the best of course
this is my only way to work for scholarships

BM - 95
BI - 90
ADD MATHS - 97
MM - ?
CHEMIS - 82
PHYSICS - 92
BIO - 90
MORAL - ?
SEJ - 98

seems like chemistry is so weak
lol compared to others
i will work even harder
for my own future
moral and modern maths, lets hope it wont be below average

i am praying hard
dont ever thing about it anymore
even if the tears can cause flood
it wont change even abit of the reality~

2011-02-17T05:22:00.000-08:00

abandoned my blog for so long
actually many things happened in february
seems like i am so unlucky huh
but i learned something at least
just keep quiet
and let them shout at you
after that particular person finished her barking
den i will just walk away

another person
i stil can understand btw
maybe she really wana me to learn something
she always used to tell me dat i have to get up from where i fall

actually i am also not so sure
but just let it be
its not dat important anymore
now, whats important to me is just STUDY

i missed out so many things
and february test is just next week =)
at least study abit to pass
wish me luck and good luck everyone xD

cheers and i can do it <3

2011-02-06T13:22:00.000-08:00

my blog is left dead for duno how many weeks
lol dats because i dont have the time or accurately mood to update
lets begin with the 21st of jan
that band night is quite ok. everything went fluently
HM even gave our band rm500 for celebrating the night's success
whatever
hahaha and here comes cny
the mood is abit diff dis year
got no idea why 2011's cny is so...
well i guess i dun nid to say it out
its just so pointless
hmm school reopens today
now its 5.30am in the morning - monday
hahaa and guess what?
i dont even sleep for a second last night
went upstairs around 2am
read dat book til 3
and came down
switched on the tv
and pulled out 3 boxes of books ==
packed it up and i planned to donate some to our school library
and now its 5++ already
OMG there are so many hw i haven finished yet~
i only done addmaths. til insane.
no choice for someone poor in mathematics like me =)
catch up dis two weeks and here it goes to feb test
wish me luck xD

cheer everyone
look forward
smile~ and everything will be ok =)

2011-01-19T22:25:00.000-08:00

went to megaview for tomorrow's night rehearsal
and what i have to say is everything is so not in order
but stil acceptable la
i just cant accept the formal part
potong reben + paluan gendang
dats because the teacher in charged is not organized enuf ==
hope nothing will goes wrong tomorrow
and that will be enough to be a great day for both of the MC

afiqah is getting mad
and me too
some ppl thought they are so and so geng
til nid to be so detail
well i have ntg to say about it
because we are not succeeded like them or whatsoever
fullstop.

time flies so fast
next week is the last week of schooling before CNY
going to really work hard after CNY
no more ponteng
but of course hope i wont fall sick so easily
my health is something - unexpectable
and so i gave up
no use predicting something that u wont know
whatever~

i am getting tired of this
and i hate this feeling so much
yeah i felt myself no longer useful
i'm totally useless and seems like just a rubbish beside the road ==
i really can't bear it anymore
please let me out
please. hope dat 2013 will come soon
after my SPM
everything will change.
lets work for dat =)

2011-01-17T20:39:00.000-08:00

i skipped school for today as i knew i haven get a real recover yet
as i skipped both ttn for ytd too
it seems like i ponteng-ed alot although school just reopens
but dats not what i want
of course i realised cant ponteng during form 4 & 5
but do i have any oth choices?
the answer is NO

sick is something u can't avoid
i mean on me dis type of weak-health person
lets hope i gonna recover TOTALLY very very soon
and lets work all over again =)

2011-01-15T18:32:00.000-08:00

its already sunday and i haven finish tons of hw yet~
and i am stil sitting down here facing dis stupid computer ==
my temperature gone back to the normal one
just a little of cough only
lets hope i will get a full recover before that charity night dis friday =)
looking forward into it

being an MC dat day in a cheongsam is not bad right?
its time to work =)
lets do it =D

2011-01-14T18:11:00.000-08:00

it begins on wednesday
when i feel like i started to cough
and some sort of sorethroat
ok nvm.
after ttn in the noon i straight away asked my parents to fetch me to the doctor
but surely have to eat something first
later when i reached the clinic
14 patient waiting
and i was like in pain until tears non-stop flowing down
so thankfully that nurse let me in first
sorry to those 14 ppl =D
haha ok and so dat dr said i am having high fever + cough or whatever
and most important
what makes my stomach pain so much until it affected my lungs?
dat type of angin dalam perut ==''
ok so he gave me 6 types of medicine
thursday i ponteng
and slept whole day without doing anything
ytd is quite ok
but after i rushed for 2 ttns in the noon
my mum asked me to ponteng for the night chemis ttn ==
which im not so willing to
but what to do?
the temperature is around 39
hmm maybe im hardworking i know
wahahaha =P but maybe i should take care
but it seems like my health is so and so fragile =)
tdy is better and i hope i will recover soon
dwn to be a long-term patient ANYMORE =D

more to come
lets celebrate CNY happily =)
after that celebration..
work hard for feb test everyone =D

real start of form 4

2011-01-11T22:16:00.000-08:00

its a real start of form 4 life as dis is the 2nd week of schooling
hmm lets start with add maths tuition
although my school add maths teacher is miss phua but i stil go ttn under her
and add maths is quite fun - i think so
we can't stop add maths as teacher said
if not, everything we learnt earlier on will be meaningless. have to start all over again
and then about my bio tuition
tuesday, when i'm all alone ytd night
2 and a half hours there really helps me alot
luckily i'm not dat sleepy as i slept in the afternoon before account xD
so i really concentrate in what miss tan is telling me
dis and dat or whatever =)
and every qs dat i did is mostly correct
i think the only wrong is about those diagrams which i'm not so familiar with
i believe as i go along with hardwork and full-hearted learning these subjects, i will succeed very easily.

as teacher said, dont learn with ur brain. learn with ur heart =D
actually malay language teacher who is encik shamsul is abit.. maybe boring or what.
but his teaching is considered not bad
and oh ya something new about chemistry
2nd class where we have to go into the chemis lab
and dat teacher punished us standing outside. i think 95% of the students of 4C standing outside the lab coz we are not in time =)
and when we entered the class, as i sat at the back den i think the voice is quite clear compared to our first class
so what to say?
its totally because dat GPK pentadbiran sat the most behind of the lab listening to dat particullar teacher talking in front.
and dat day she's abit different
and i realized dat every single thing dat she said is very very important and useful for exam.
so i jot it down and hopefully i will rmb it
something regarding to the rules of paper 3.
if we go against dat rules, marks will be deducted.

will be the MC for charity night 21st of jan at megaview
can't wait for chinese new year
guess why?
coz i wana to wear new clotes =)
hahaha going down to KL dis saturday.
yeah going to meet my cute chubby daughter dis weekend.

even though 8 of them failed the exam
and i am the only one who passed it
but somehow i realized i din reli put effort into it.
coz i just managed ON THE BORDER LINE
but anyway, feel great when god bless me and luck is stil with me dat day

my health is getting weaker and weaker
dat report is not like what i've expected
means.. its getting worse or whatever
i don't care
anyway, no matter how i suffer i just wont say it out anymore =)
but of course i will try to take care
study is the priority
my health... if reli no chance to recover, den just let it be
dis is the fate of mine =D

sorry..
i sincerely apologise and i hope u dun feel angry and blame me =)
just let it be like ntg happen (i mean ytd) and back to brothers ok?

haha lets start form 4 life NOW
the real one~
lets do it =)

short night

2011-01-09T12:33:00.000-08:00

its a short night when i just slept around 4 hours
maybe its because i overslept ytd morning
it occurs almost every sunday
i dont have any idea about it
anyway, good or bad, it doesn't really matter that much to me

going to start another form4 week today
dis will happen continuosly til next year.
one week link to month
ltr, february and months link to one year - 2011
and that will be the end of 2011
well, lets not talk bout it because i actually not fond of predicting something future. for me, future means future
we can't predict what will happen next
sometimes we plan to do dis and that
but things went weird
often happens dat things dont go the way u want it to
so.. there's the place where we often got frustrated
hmm.. hatred seldom found on me actually
nowadays, i really calm down alot. although not totally =)
i will try my best to be more calm.
but of course i wont chg the "active-ness" of my mouth
always love to talk.
i mean not dat kind of normal one
especially to those boys
it was something fun. hmm maybe self-satisfication =D
everyone knew im dis kind of person and they never really care bout what i said =)

going to be the MC with afiqah
for that charity night
something like dat i guess ==
for the band of our school
haha it was kinda a new experience for me
coz dis type of night is more formal compared to school one
hari guru or hari koko or whatever
hahaha and as afiqah said
there will be many Dato
and she is going to pick one to marry dat particular Dato' after her SPM
lol ==" well i just hope she will be better after getting my advice
hmm actually its not dat she's trying or not
its not dat she can do it or not
it only matters whether she wants to do it or not =)
as long as she has the determination and she believes dat she really can do it, then she will succeed. but as i said, she is not strong for that yet. because she doesn't have that particular determination
whatever it is, i just hope that she will get through this and wont waste any time being sad over dis matter =)
i always support her =D

sorry if i did anything wrong
i reli mean to say sorry
and i knew why i said dat particular "sorry" =)

time to study jessie lee!
<3 work hard please =)

2011-01-09T04:35:00.000-08:00

a new life in this 2011
where i think i reli built full-confidence in myself
yeah as long as we believe in ourselves, everything will be fine

no matter what happen i wont give up my own future
SPM is my priority now
of course music too
LTCL, LRSM and Grade 4 fundamental and Grade 5 electone!
i'm coming
i will work hard to AT LEAST pass it =)
im lucky dis time
but i realised luck wont follow me every second
so i must include my work hard too

so first week of form 4 is stil not bad.
but its just enough to kill me
no stress no stress!
hehe but i reli have to work hard
no last minute work and no lazy in my life from now on
not like today.
slept til 12.30pm
OMG! i am stil a pig =)
hehe yes i can do it!

as long as i always tell myself i can do it
den this should be no problem for me
believe in urself jessie
and just fight for it <3